I am me

what you really see in me is not me. I am an imitator and a dreamer, you should know. not at all, but my style, most of them is fake and it's all really not me. although I am an imitator, I have my own way. I don't make them all as same as the origin. I usually change a bit so I didn't seem like I was imitating something. most of what I do, what I say, what I wear, they are imitative. I'm not fully I am till this second. and the reason why I can be like this is my dreams. I could be murdered by my dream. well, not really murdered I go to heaven or hell, it's about my personality. something inside of me always whispers, "I wanna be rich like that", "I wanna be that slim", "I wanna be that tall", "I wanna be like Cinderella who finds her true love and they live happily ever after", "I wanna have a voice like Ashley Tisdale", "I wanna live happily ever after with my husband who truly loves me", "I wanna be smart like Albert Einstein", "I wanna be Jessica Alba", and anything else that impossible I could be. I can only dream and dream and dream again. I'm trying to find who I really am, all this time. but all that I can find is I am selfishly and that's the reason why someone left me. okay, forget that. something else that I can find is I don't care who I supposed to be. I just want to run this life with my own way because it's mine not theirs. I just wanna be me. I'll try no matter how hard it is.